Saturday, July 30, 2011


"But it isn't just fragility and size that make it difficult to cope with the loss of a horse, it's the irreplaceable companionship. There is a particular place in my heart that is completely off limits, save for my original three: Spanky, Shawn and Rowdy. With Spanky and Rowdy gone, I am terrified of losing my little baby boy, Shawn. I am absolutely terrified." - from this post, last year, when I lost Rowdy.

On Thursday, I lost my best friend of twenty-two years. I'm having a difficult time even typing this out.
If you've been reading this blog for long, you know I have a deep love for my animals. If you know me in real life, you know that Shawn is my heart. Ever since I was a little girl, I always used to tell him (and I now say this to Miku, too), "You have to live forever." I couldn't imagine life without him. With him in his late thirties, I knew I would have to face it eventually but I didn't think it would have to be so soon after Rowdy.

I fell in love with Shawn when I was on the verge of five years old. We had recently purchased our first horse, Spanky, and the owners also had a little pony named Shaitan (whom we called Shawn). Though they originally had no intentions of selling him, they eventually changed their minds. My mom surprised us with him in a pasture on Christmas day - it was probably the best day of my entire life. From that moment on, Shawn and I were best buds. Though my mom got him for all of us, I think my sisters would agree that Shawn was my baby. But really, I was his. He chose me as his person. We shared a very special bond from the get-go. He was always looking after me.

I have so much to say about him, so many little stories to share, but can't even talk about it right now and I'll have to do it later. I've been holed up in my apartment for the last three days; I'm having the worst time with this. The thing I've been struggling with the most is that I wasn't there with him when he passed. I was there with Spanky and I was there with Rowdy. I had no idea Shawn was being put to sleep because my family kept it all from me, perhaps trying to protect me - and I didn't find out until two hours before. I would have been on a plane in a heartbeat; I would have been right by his side. I'm angry and heartbroken. I should have been there, the way I was with Rowdy and Spanky. I will never forgive myself for it.

Shawn, I owe you everything. You, Spanky and Rowdy were the main reasons I had any happiness and stability in my childhood. You were the best friend a girl could ever ask for.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

flat and sassy

Outfit Details:
cutout top - c/o Threadsence
maxi skirt - c/o Spotted Moth
vintage belt - gift from my mom
rings - Forever 21 and street vendor
vintage necklace - gift from my mom
Mother of Pearl heels - c/o Seychelles
MAC clutch - c/o Rebecca Minkoff
glasses - Ray-Ban
lipstick/nails - Estée Lauder Melon/Estée Lauder Hot Coral polish

I never really developed in the chest area; I wore training bras until...well, I could probably still get away with wearing them. But hips, on the other hand - I've had what have been referred to as "birthin' hips" as far back as middle school. Back then, I wore extra large t-shirts and short BONGO shorts that masked my wide hips and the fact that I had a completely flat chest. It was a good look (it wasn't). I didn't dare try to fake it with a stuffed bra, though if I ever did, I would've tried the pudding technique, à la Teeny in  Now and Then. Be honest - how many of you did that?

That being said, I never had nor do I have an issue with my hips. Without them, I would have no curves at all. But maxi skirts like this tend to magnify how very hippy I am and I never thought it was a very flattering silhouette on me. Somewhere along the way, I decided I didn't give a crap, just like I decided in high school that being a part of the IBTC was something to be celebrated and not hidden under oversized shirts. We may not have boobs, but we have cheaper bras! And I may have big hips, but I'm wearing whatever the hell I feel like wearing. Downright rebellious, I am. Throw caution to the wind!

Plus, on this particular day, I had two people stop me to tell me I looked beautiful. That never happens! Who said New Yorkers aren't nice?

Monday, July 25, 2011

Makeup Monday: Shady Eyes

As I mentioned in this post, I decided to give Urban Decay's 15-year anniversary eyeshadow collection its own feature. One problem: there are so many colors, I might have to do a few more looks with different shadows! This palette is extra special because it includes 15 all new colors - no pre-existing shades. It has a great variety of bright, saturated and more subdued shadows. For this first look, I went for a high impact look with neutral shades.
In the meantime, keep reading after the jump for what I used and a step by step tutorial on how to achieve this look.

me and the girls

I'm working on Makeup Monday at the moment but in the meantime, here are some pictures I forgot to post. I miss my little sister! /broken record

Saturday, July 23, 2011


Outfit Details:
mustard pleated dress - c/o Ruche
lace peter pan collar top - Urban Outfitters (I wish the collar was black - thinking of dyeing it)
vintage black lace slip - probably from my mom
dany platforms - c/o Jessica Simpson (I changed out of these at the park, obviously)
bow flats - Nine West
MAC clutch - c/o Rebecca Minkoff
glasses - Ray-Ban

We frequent our favorite dog park in Brooklyn Heights, where Miku can play with her little puppy friends. It has tons of room for all of the dogs to run and play, multiple picnic benches, doggy water fountains and even a kiddie pool during the summer. It's one of my favorite destinations, and certainly Miku's!

Friday, July 22, 2011


Outfit Details:
dress - c/o Silvio Liu
net top (I cut off the sleeves) - Wet Seal
Effe clutch - c/o Hobo International
Seychelles Mother of Pearl - c/o Seychelles
lipstick - Urban Decay Super-Saturated High Gloss Lip Color in Punch Drunk
Versace frames - c/o LensCrafters

When I was in high school, I was cast as the narrator in Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. Upon entering the musical theatre program at my university, I saw a guy wearing a cast shirt from another Joseph production. Since I felt a little out of place and everyone else seemed to somehow already know one another, I used it as an icebreaker. "Oh cool, your school did Joseph, too?" His reply? A scoff and an eye-roll followed by, "I am Joseph."

We never did become friends, and I am no longer in musical theatre (unrelated to that incident). To be fair, that was a pretty lame attempt at breaking the ice; I never was very good at social introductions. Whose school didn't do that show?

This dress just reminds me of the technicolor dreamcoat, which is why I recalled this very random story. My very own technicolor dreamcoat dress. Who's Joseph now, sucker?!

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Young Hearts, Be Free Tonight

Outfit Details:
Foley + Corinna tunic - Gilt
fringe skirt - c/o Shop Mamie (early last year)
Senso Wilma shoes - c/o Solestruck
MAC clutch - c/o Rebecca Minkoff
glasses - Ray-Ban 
rings - Forever 21 and Beacon's Closet
bracelet - Forever 21
lipstick - Urban Decay Super-Saturated High Gloss Lip Color in Crush (c/o Urban Decay - see more in this post)

Last week, I had a lovely evening out with a bunch of my favorite girls - which doesn't happen nearly enough (let's remedy that). I grew up in a family full of girls but went through this stage in my youth where I decided I was just one of the boys. Why? Because teenage girls can be pretty cruel, and the boys always treated me like a little sister - or maybe even a little brother (I think everyone thought I was a lesbian, even my great grandma [she was cool with it]). I soon realized that not all girls are alike and the catty ones should be viewed as an exception to the rule - because really, most of us are not that stereotype. I still love my guy friends, but there's nothing like an evening out with the ladies. Here's to never having to decide whether you're a guys' gal or girls' girl!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Asian iCandy Giveaway!

Today's giveaway is courtesy of Asian iCandy, who is offering one of my lucky readers a $40 credit to their online shop.

To enter, simply Like Asian iCandy on facebook and leave them a comment telling them your favorite Asian iCandy item. Make sure to tell them I sent you!

Entries will be accepted until 9 pm EST Monday, July 25th. A winner will be chosen at random and contacted through facebook. Good luck!

p.s. Use code "keiko" for 15% off any order!

over and over

Outfit Details:
Chambray Rebecca Dress - c/o Fischer
Foley + Corinna Mid-City Tote - c/o Foley + Corinna
On a sheer day top - c/o ModCloth
platforms - Aldo
bracelets - Forever 21, Rebecca Minkoff, vintage
rings - Forever 21, hand-me-down initial ring
Versace frames - c/o LensCrafters
lipstick: Urban Decay Super-Saturated High Gloss Lip Color in F-Bomb
nails: Estée Lauder Hot Coral

Those of you who follow me on twitter or facebook have already seen them (I'm bad at surprises) but here are the new frames I picked up at my appointment with LensCrafters! I went in there with a pretty open mind but was pretty sure I would leave with something very different than these. I tried on several pairs but ultimately decided to go with something bold and bright. Since I already have a pair of black frames and they graciously fitted my brown vintage frames with my prescription, I figured I might as well go with something different. I've been loving the variety. Glasses are fun! Unlike braces, which I also wished for and ended up not loving as much. I hated my retainer even more, which is why I have crooked teeth but I digress.

Naturally, the first time I wore my new glasses, I paired them with a bunch of matchy-matchy items from my wardrobe because that's exactly what you're not supposed to do. Oh, they're reddish coral? I'll see that and raise you a matching shirt, bag, lipstick, nails and bracelet. I'm also that girl who listens to songs on repeat, so don't expect me to practice moderation. You're lucky I'm not wearing 50+ bracelets right now, because five year old me wore so many bracelets I had to walk with my arms held out. I broke up the colors with that little chambray dress by Fischer - an independent and local label I love. The designer sent Bobby and me a beautiful package of her designs and I have been wearing both this dress and this shirt a lot. I love classics that I can wear over and over. I can't wait to see what's in store for them in the near future!